>I must ween myself, if I ever hope to get a job.

The need is more now then ever, I could of course take the easy way out as a few people I know have done. However, I need to do this for myself, to prove I can do it. I need another way to deal other then to turn to a vice.

I worry that it’ll always be a major part of my life, and I’ve seen what goes along with it. I want to be free from it, as something that I have to do. It’s become less, as of late… and there’s nothing wrong with anything in moderation, but there’s a time and a place for everything. I’m finding that this is no longer the time, and not really the place.