>Update — yeah…

so I started my MCSA/MCSE training: Network, Linux, Security… and I feel a bit more alive.

Tired as hell cause I still haven’t gotten my sleep schedule right yet — and the head’s chock full of thinking when I try and go to sleep, no matter how tired I am.

I had a dream the other night that I was sent over to Iraq without any training. I was out on the battle field, unprepared. I only had my small gun and didn’t even have it out. I could have been shot by about 5 different guys, but they ignored me due to my obvious ineptitude with said weapon. I heard someone yelling to me – one of the others in my squad. They told me where my machine gun was — I pulled it out, and ducked down. I attempted to shoot at people, and was readily shot the next time I popped up.

I could feel tightness in my chest, an ache… and was really stressed when I woke.

A night or so after that I had a dream somewhat resembling an episode of “junkyard wars”. I had to build a contraption. Now I can’t weld or do anything like that but I was doing it in the dream. I had my plan, had to get it to completion, but it kept looking different, and I got really frustrated that I couldn’t finish the thing. It was somewhat like a tank?

It happend again the night or so after, I woke up and was pissed — I want to relax when I sleep, not get all stressed about issues that aren’t even real. Issues like “I can’t get this weld to stay… where’s the right sized wheel for this?… or how come I’m the only one able to see my plan?!!”

.:sigh:.

I don’t even have to read into those — pretty obvious I guess.