>I’m a schmuck, a fucking schmuck.

Do I need to come off as an asshole to make it in this world? If I’m a civilized human being will it continue to make me a target? It sure seems it, I must have a big shiny “shmuck” light popping up over my head.

I suppose it’s my fault for living in a city. You have an increased element of crime, but as of late it seems things have been getting desperate for the street urchins.

Trust has always been my downfall, time after time I look back and kick myself. Phil “can’t believe he’d do that?!!” but it’s not him anymore, it’s a rat hitting a feeder bar — except the feeder bar takes a hell of a lot more effort and involves hopping out of my house with my laptop & XBox. He took the games before, but this time came back for the XBox — and the 2 new games I picked up yesterday along with the DVD Player/Remote.

He must have been watching… waiting for people to leave, for my light to go out. If someone had in fact slept on the couch — it wouldn’t have happened. I should have, if only I had a seccond chance.

I suppose there’s more hope for my laptop then the XBox — @ $2200 a year ago, that’s going to be the tougher of the two to replace. We got the serial number, I called Toshiba to report it stolen… and the police say they’ll call all the pawn shops in the area to be sure it’s not sold. Maybe there’s a chance that he’d sell it to a store — might have a shot, then – but it’s a big ticket item, and no crack head’s going to give him what it’s worth… so maybe he’ll be just that dumb, I hope.

Anthony Rivera – you are my arch nemesis. I will see to your downfall!