>Well Christmas came and went… a large build-up but not too much happening, otherwise. I went up to VT early to visit family, found that everyone is secretly conspiring against everyone else — a large reason to keep family time to a minimum, or at least my mom’s side of the family which is just generally crazy… but its better then not knowing them at all, as is the case with my Dad’s side. I don’t understand it, but aparently everyone else has quite similar problems.

You get to choose friends, I suppose thats why they’re better… but it was simply communication issue as far as being able to get my point accross. That happens a lot anyhow, but was totally out of whack while around family. I’m sure they don’t know what kind of person I am, but of course they assume I’m exactly like every other member of the family… I give up and let them take whatever I said how they intended because it tires me to argue it into their heads so they’ll know what I meant. It’s complete missunderstanding with no possibility of further explanation, because once it goes around in a circle once or twice… everyone gives up and goes on.

I just hope to be able to get my point accross eventually. I’m a different breed, raised in a different area, people, culture… .:sigh:.

Normal day-to-day life shall resume as of January 2nd… hopefully most people will be talking about their New Year’s on the 1st… and the christmas clothes will be in the wash, gadgets will have established their new lives, and the bows removed from the gift-Lexus-es-es.

Optimistic projections on the economy, not so optimistic retail sales numbers, job cuts, it’s such a mixed bag, people are still living how they were for the most part, at least for the people I know. There’s a few that are out of work – and who don’t necessarily want to work. I really don’t blame them… but the sooner you’re in a steady job, the sooner you can try and get paid more. =]

There were a few difficulties this year, but I got through them – and am better off for it. I’ve learned valuable lessons that I won’t get into here… few regrets, but if I didn’t have the regrets, I wouldn’t have learned the lessons the same. It’s kind of like when something happens to someone else – you can learn the lesson from what they went through, but never quite like if you have to go through it yourself.

One thing I’ve still yet to figure out… and I’m thinking maybe that’ll get easier with age. Not experience, just the magic age that opens all the doors from that point on. =) It’s hard to devote the time to the things that I feel I need to get done. There’s not much motivation as there’s no one really there to see it other then myself. I can imagine it being done and simply be satisfied in the fact that I thought of it, while living with it how it is currently. I’m able to devote the time that I’d be spending to get it to how I imagine it being, and using that for things that really don’t accomplish anything, but reward now. It’s a question of how long I can continue, thinking all I need is time, before actually picking up my pieces and completing the long-term goals.

I’m aware of it, and hopefully that counts for something — though not nearly as much as actually accomplishing the goals at hand.