>Ok… so I’m really tired. I kept having crazy nightmares last night. I’m not normally the type so it’s kind of strange.

I was in a hot tub… inside a dimly lit glass enclosure. It was like being in an aquarium now that I think of it… it was really cold outside and the hot tub was really cooking, so there was fog everywhere. I kept feeling some really cold hands on me… pushing me down under the water. I kept trying to wake up, I’d be in my bed, try to sit up… but the hands/thing kept pushing me back down on the pillow. Icy arms/hands (dismembered, frozen almost solid) pushing on my chest and near my neck, but not choking me. I kept feeling like I was falling, would wake up, and the hands would be pushing me down until I fell asleep… I’d be falling again, wake up… and it kept happening. Finally I got through it and got a little bit of sleep… woke up around 4:00 or so, but it must have been 2 hours trying to get to sleep, 2 hours of nightmare (so if felt like) and disturbed sleep… it was exhausting.

I had said something to someone earlier about the ghosts in the house all being up on the 3rd floor, just joking and being silly but of course that’s the first thing that popped into my head and that got to me after a while of fighting against whatever invisible force it was.

I haven’t had a night like that in a while.

Work’s tough, so much work, so little appreciation. (sic)

Just a little while more, get a degree under my belt. I’m sure I could ask around, see what’s available… but what if after I do that the company burgeons? I’ll kick myself. I’m always waiting for the payoff that will never come. The “big reward” that ensures me my effort is worth it. 2 years + and still ticking.

All I can say is I was warned…