>I’m so confused, frustrated… mainly due to people that I thought I knew. Either I didn’t know them like I thought I did, or they’ve changed. Usually change is a natural progression… sometimes good, sometimes bad. I have this nagging tug at the back of my head, looking to any available female who I’ve yet to meet — usually they’re really nice, there has to be something to draw me to them.
My past girlfriend was really pretty — that was about it. I figured there’d be more under the surface… nope. I like to think that I get my first impression on some really deep intuition… usually it’s looks. I try and get involved in a conversation, no matter how trivial… to hopefully show off a bit of my winning personality — because we all know it’s personality that gets you everywhere. *ahem* no sarcasm there… It’s quite frustrating, and I’m beginning to think there’s no one who meets my very basic criteria:
even considering women I’ve met as old as 26, this is asking too much — I’d like someone to pass the time with, someone who’s interesting, enjoys the little things – squirrels, sun, sociology 😉
It’s funny cause I have just the person in mind, who knows if that person still has me in mind… most likely not, maybe she wants to move on… but we had such good conversation, back and forth – always with something to talk about. She took care of herself, dressed nicely, had a good aire about her… she mingled, and could jump into a conversation at almost any point. Last I heard she was busy, in kinda rough times, and working quite a bit. That is most likely still the case, but I’ll take the hint from the unanswered emails and messages that she’d rather be on her own at this time of her life.
If I didn’t think about her so much, I probably wouldn’t mind. I was one of the first people to know about her list of requirements, and remarkably matched almost all of them. She also fulfilled more requirements then I had ever had anyone live up to, kinda strange how that works.