>Lots on my mind = lots of entries. This is a test — can I live in the gritty world of rap? Can I know street cred being so after the fact — coming to it, not growing up in it. I want this to play out — to prove one way or another if worst case will happen or not. I need to know if I can make it, if I can learn anything that would help others. Can a person raised in the woods make it in the city with the hoodlums? Should I just run away before…

>Thats it, just have to start selling my body. Any serious inquiries:: send them my way =]

>So maybe on a slighty more upbeat note, a few of my friends went to Phish this weekend — as always, a grand ol time. This guy is receiving the ultimate publicity — eBay banned sales of the artist’s “Axis of Weasels” playing cards. Heard of “Flash Mobbing“? Yeah, I got the 411. I’m jiggy with it. – mobproject.com – flashmob.co.uk Wow, here’s a new and original idea for a game. Wikipedia – an open source encyclopedia project.

>A few friends are going to check out the local pawn shops, see if anything might have popped up while I’m stuck here at work. Chances are no one would receive it because it’s such a hefty machine. Anyone coming to trade it in on a bike — probably shouldn’t have it. I would certainly love to find it, but I’m not overly optimistic at this point. It’s better that two of my female friends are going to check it out too — because then they wouldn’t suspect anything, and they’re really good at using their charm. Also found out…

>I’m a schmuck, a fucking schmuck. Do I need to come off as an asshole to make it in this world? If I’m a civilized human being will it continue to make me a target? It sure seems it, I must have a big shiny “shmuck” light popping up over my head. I suppose it’s my fault for living in a city. You have an increased element of crime, but as of late it seems things have been getting desperate for the street urchins. Trust has always been my downfall, time after time I look back and kick myself. Phil…

>So I figure there’s not much goin on this evening… and then there’s the whole thing that everyone planned for tonight. I’m going to get to the club late — that’s OK. I’m getting my outfit delivered so I can leave right from here. It’s been a while, I wonder if I can get in the groove. J is part everything. Can you give the wind a nationality, a color, a brand of denim? NO! Such is J.

>This week is brought to you by fore-thought: Have you bought or sold your textbooks for the upcoming semester? The secret shall remain just that… until I can take some time in Photoshop to do it right. =-] if you remember the URL you’re welcome to it, the sidebar will probably update 😉 Check out D I G I T A L C O N T R A D I C T I O N – new layout! NY Post: Keith Richards has to put up with fans throwing drugs on stage.

>August 9 2003 : Club Asylum : Springfield Mass THE TOPAZ RECORDS TOUR: Space girl Miss Lisa Pleasurhead Empress Exodus CER ex:. SPACE GIRL:. The “Queen of Acid Trance” is Back in Springfield for the first time in over a year, with an all new Live PA! We welcome back the Soviet sweetheart to hit us with the emotional pounding grooves like only she can do live and in your face! Music: Hard acid trance Weblink: www.Spacegirlmusic.com Tickets : $20!!!!!!! (Early sign on special @ spinfoil.com until june 19) $28 thereafter and more at door available at: www.Spinfoil.com (MA): Growroom-…

>Laura joined me for a drive around, we caught Danielle getting out of work when we popped in so we decided to make a day of it. We played some mini-golf, after driving for quite a while — just enjoying being out in the nice weather. It was a tad swealtering for a while, almost thunderstormed – was just about to let it rip when all the clouds dissapated. It saved our game of mini-golf. We went to the backwoods course in Southwick/Westfield. It was not very good, and I was thinking of adding various things to do around WesternMA…

>So I got out of work early yesterday, did a lot of running around — really feel like I got something done. Partied it up with some drinking games later on… passed out on the couch. 😉 It was a good night. I woke up fairly early (for a saturday) and was just chillin when Laura popped up. We had a really long in-depth discussion, brought up a lot of stuff that was bothering both of us, just to get it out and said. Nothing between us, just about other goings on… and believe I’ve gotten to a rather large…

>ACK. stuck in lofi again… .:sigh:. Why not buy some movies and music while the gettin’ is hot — $4 off every DVD, VHS, & CD! ** Security Note ** It’s always good to know what the underworld’s up to. A rather interesting spin on the conservative right and what it all boils down to. Cops sit and wait to nab racers @ rally, broken up by premature police-ation – 194 still arrested. Since when is it illegal to stand on the street. Here’s some tips to avoid being targeted by the RIAA. New ramblings from defectiveyeti.

>I told Phil to be out today. It didn’t go over well, I’m scared.