>Why does my American Flag say “made in China”? It just doesn’t seem right. One would think that’s at least one thing we wouldn’t have to import.

>I’m back to burning rage mode. .:sigh:. I went home on lunch, just to check the place out — of course I left my house keys inside. So I could only walk around outside. I examined the window, found a stool on the side of the house… it had been dragged from the back yard to the point of entry. The screen’s locks were broken at the bottom, metal brace pulled away and the lock popped. I feel like anything could happen now… at any time. I’m upset that I can’t allow a breeze to flow through durring the day…

>Lots on my mind = lots of entries. This is a test — can I live in the gritty world of rap? Can I know street cred being so after the fact — coming to it, not growing up in it. I want this to play out — to prove one way or another if worst case will happen or not. I need to know if I can make it, if I can learn anything that would help others. Can a person raised in the woods make it in the city with the hoodlums? Should I just run away before…

>Thats it, just have to start selling my body. Any serious inquiries:: send them my way =]

>So maybe on a slighty more upbeat note, a few of my friends went to Phish this weekend — as always, a grand ol time. This guy is receiving the ultimate publicity — eBay banned sales of the artist’s “Axis of Weasels” playing cards. Heard of “Flash Mobbing“? Yeah, I got the 411. I’m jiggy with it. – mobproject.com – flashmob.co.uk Wow, here’s a new and original idea for a game. Wikipedia – an open source encyclopedia project.

>A few friends are going to check out the local pawn shops, see if anything might have popped up while I’m stuck here at work. Chances are no one would receive it because it’s such a hefty machine. Anyone coming to trade it in on a bike — probably shouldn’t have it. I would certainly love to find it, but I’m not overly optimistic at this point. It’s better that two of my female friends are going to check it out too — because then they wouldn’t suspect anything, and they’re really good at using their charm. Also found out…

>I’m a schmuck, a fucking schmuck. Do I need to come off as an asshole to make it in this world? If I’m a civilized human being will it continue to make me a target? It sure seems it, I must have a big shiny “shmuck” light popping up over my head. I suppose it’s my fault for living in a city. You have an increased element of crime, but as of late it seems things have been getting desperate for the street urchins. Trust has always been my downfall, time after time I look back and kick myself. Phil…