Oh goodness, one or two of those drafts were actually published, some on purpose but there’s another that I didn’t exactly mean to. It’s up now though, so lets just hope no one reads that one until it’s fallen back into the history again.

I found one particular incident that I feel I need closure on. I recently met back up with a former roommate online – so I have a way to ask about this incident. It may bring all the feelings back, but I’d like to think she’s in a similar place as I am now. We have our own lives and many wonderful things happening. So maybe this just might work…

…and it will settle the issue hands down.

**update 05 03 2012 **
I did have a chance to talk about it today, we talked for a while but it felt really good. I carry around these unresolved chunks of life like bubbles that linger in my brain. The longer they sit the more prominent they become. This had all come from something I will call “the jeans incident”. It was truly a case of fugue. I didn’t remember what happened, even right after it happened. I alway thought I was framed. As soon as the missing puzzle piece was provided it all came back. My posts (think I will arrange them tomorrow) are written in an honest state of bewilderment, which is the magic of blocking something you don’t want to be true. So in these posts I am in the wrong, but feel it is an interesting perspective and certainly a wonderful lesson to anyone coming upon that particular stage of life. I am lucky to have had the ability to add the perspective of time to this experience to give the entire picture.

Such a force was my own mind against me, it drove me to sever a friendship based on an incident that was ultimately my fault. Inebriation can be a hell of a thing.
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…and this post is hilarious!

An interesting dream:
original – http://www.synthetic-x.com/2004/06/dream.html
imported – http://synthetic-x.com/archive/2004/06/dream