I’m always searching for something. Today that is cheaper rent. I am looking at a lesser building because I need to do something. I’d like another bedroom for the kids. If that can be cheaper, well that’s cool too. I’m searching romantically. I wouldn’t mind being in an actual relationship. I want a go-to person to hang with. Someone local, someone low drama, preferably attracted to me, and I to them. Maybe I’m to much drama for a relationship, I mostly want a friend. Other needs are here and far between, and I’ve sufficiently got that down. I’m searching for…
Enter the Cray(cray)
Nothing Trying to think about why I am sad. I feel like there are layers of sadness right now. I just spent the weekend with my kids. I was later than I wanted getting up. I was supposed to do more than I did before picking them up. I felt like I needed more time with myself. I also felt bad that I didn’t just go ahead and take them Friday night too. They had it off so they could have come early. The plan was to have my friend come over and hang out. No real purpose, just general…
The Gooey Incident 1
Originally drafted 2004 07 03 – leads to the other draft >Carletta yelled at me tonight. She seemed increasingly pissed. When she first picked up the brush in her room she said 8 dollars, then by the time she was washing it off she said it was 40 dollars. I’m sure I’d estimate high if it were me too… and that’s something you just can’t wash away so I understand. (though I’m trying my best with the “Se7ens” jeans =]~ ) Yeah, a good batch by a drunk Josh — and I couldn’t tell ya what happened. Sat down on…
The Gooey Incident 2
Originally drafted 2004 07 03 – again, we seem to have several entries that all tie into the same incident >I made a big kahooie. There was this thing with a big mess and my drunken-self, and things I ruined because of it… very expensive things. Whats a guy to do, I need to make good on it – live up to it. I’m trying my best to make it better but after apolgizing and sending a letter of recognition of my stupidness I still get this mad vibe. I can live with that, but when it starts getting confusing…
They Gooey Incident 3 – previously “The Downward Spiral”
Originally drafted 2004 07 09 – same issue first look at my head not turning itself off and prognosticating what was to come >All I can think about is this crap with Carletta. I don’t know where this will stop, it certainly keeps going in my head. If she causes Allison to move out, I’m finished. Unless I can get someone else to live here I’m going to have to move out if both of them move out. I don’t have any friends left if they’re all mad at me and there’s only Scott living here. I think Scott would…
The Gooey Incident 4
Orignally drafted on 2004 07 14 – not published due to the sensitivity of the emotional turmoil. It would have actually made the situation worse, so I withheld it. Still keeping this in draft for a while… >Carletta just popped in, like a tornado just pops in. She grabbed her Futon, who knows where she’s headed. I’d figure to Ren’s house but wonder if she’s giving the bed to Allen. She seemed to make a pivitol decision once Allen came back. He was there that night at Alibis. He helped her move the futon. Ren would never help her do…
Statement of Doing
originally drafted August 2004 editors note: 2012 05 03 not sure how all this panned out but it certainly got worse before it got better This is draft — personal rambling. I’m sick of being fucked with. – mind games – guilt trips Not going to deal with shitty people, going to start telling them to their face. People take me as too nice, it was always “just easier” for me to say nothing… things would always brighten up after that. People get to know me, know that it’s usually the way and decide to take advantage of it. I…
The Digg section has left the building.
Digg did away with it’s inline blog publishing, they only support Twitter and Facebook now. Go fig… actually pulling away from the “real” web (in my opinion). I think it’s far too easy to rely on the sites which write your page for you. Short simple posts make it so easy just to type a thought and leave it hanging, never to be fully explored. Facebook won’t even be seen by anyone if they don’t check today, and in some cases within the hour depending on your group of friends. In any case I’ve adapted this space for music, makes…
NAB successfully purchases FCC
The latest FCC panel member has said Sirius needs to reserve 25% for “minority” programming for his approval. Why does it have to be minority? Why not public access?? I’d say none out of principal, but it’s an easy fix that they can leverage and it won’t be too much of an impact. It shouldn’t be anywhere near 25% either – CTV has 2 channels, DTV has none. It is the same thing, it’s a pay service! OH, and here’s where the millions spent by the NAB come in: they want to add HD radio compatibility of the radio as…