Fix it.

I always want to fix something. I am purposeful and accomplished when I fix. I start to get my most anxious when I have a problem that’s there’s nothing I can do to resolve. I’m in trouble, it’s money related, complete with money owed and law firms demanding. I can’t fix it. I have to wait for the consequences. Saving what little I’ve got for when action is needed. I’m so fidgety, uncomfortable, sad, and guilty it’s even gotten to this point. I’m trying to stay positive, look on the bright side but keep imagining myself living out of my…

Colony Collapse

What do you do when you can’t make ends meet? I’ve tried to live simply, to make a good home for my kids. They have their own rooms. I’ve made a home, which is more than I ever thought I’d be able to do. Things seemed impossible this time last year, I wanted to give up. Now I want to keep going… but I can’t. I’ve tried and now I’m at the point of filling out paperwork to figure out if restructuring my loan will do me any good, or if I need to walk away. There’s so much that’s…

Messed Up

Keeping with the latest theme, I feel messed up. My house, my finances especially, and me. I can’t sit still and never know what to do with myself once the kids leave. Time on my own is a deafening silence. I’m trying to clean right now, the robo vacuum decided to work so at least some of the stray kitty litter will be picked up. I’m lacking about vacuum so when it doesn’t work it’s a bit of a pickle. I picked up enough so it could do it’s thing but there’s nothing short of cleaning the bathrooms again. I…

Things We Do to Windows In the Dark

I am a settings fiddler. I’m constantly optimizing, but there are a few things I do every time I face a new windows install. I figured I’d include some here to keep track of them and maybe help someone out in the process who might not know about some of these. 1.) Data drive – Always keep a separate data drive.  This used to be a partition of the main drive, one for the operating system, and one for the data.  This helps because Windows doesn’t always live forever, at least it didn’t used to but the latest UEFI booting…

Adventures in Adulting (.cont)

I have rented a 2nd floor apartment in a house in a bad neighborhood. I have been robbed. I took measures which prevented me from being cleaned out the following day until I could move out to a safe location. I moved into someone’s shared floor house which caused them to be evicted. I texted a third floor apartment with that same person who moved in with the landlord and left it mostly empty. I have rented a half house, 3 floor, 5 bedrooms and attempted to manage it. I moved in with a girlfriend temporarily when that situation turned…

Vudu You Ought To Check Out (free)

As Walmart creeps ever closer to challenging Netflix’s streaming rule they’ve added free offerings of some older movies with ads. HDX (1080p 5.1) quality… 0 content edits. They’re no referrals anymore so I won’t bother linking to them here. Pluto Nash I had never seen this one before. It was one of those movie covers that just looks pain dumb but was pleasantly surprised. 4 solid-ass stars. Costume design was incredible! They’ve created ‘little America’ on the moon and there’s some gambling hubub. Memorable characters, forgettable tropes. Death to Smoochy Also 4 stars, a very different set of starts, however.…

Searching

I’m always searching for something. Today that is cheaper rent. I am looking at a lesser building because I need to do something. I’d like another bedroom for the kids. If that can be cheaper, well that’s cool too. I’m searching romantically. I wouldn’t mind being in an actual relationship. I want a go-to person to hang with. Someone local, someone low drama, preferably attracted to me, and I to them. Maybe I’m to much drama for a relationship, I mostly want a friend. Other needs are here and far between, and I’ve sufficiently got that down. I’m searching for…

A new era

Much has changed since April. I hope to expand the type of content… Actually creating content. My twitch is relatively active as is YouTube and especially Twitter. Making that a more visible component is one of my goals. I hope you’ll stay tuned for dinner exciting developments ┬░hint hint┬░

Carmageddon: MAX Damage

Well this was a bonus, really. They took the scaled-down version for consoles and released it for PC as well. It really is designed to obfuscate, blur, and scale down… down… down. It’s a huge step down from Carmageddon: Reincarnation…

Titanfall 2

I would put this game into a bad timing pocket.  It may not see the exposure it deserves.  I may need to check out the first one just to know for sure but it feels better, plays better, certainly looks better. At least the rocks and storage units look good, and all the post processing, it’s like a might and magic game with all the energy; the air buzzing and swirling and sizzling, crackling with energy bolts.  The nature, not so much but you’re not really looking at the trees, anyway. Further analysis and gameplay to come. Off-loading brain packets.…

TV – Mr Robot Season 2

I finished it. I’m a bit delayed, actually quite a bit delayed, but glad I could finish it within a few days.  These cliff hangers would really wear on me. It almost takes too much license.  There is a quote in an episode later on to Darlene that sums up the feel of the season, nicely: “you keep pretending you know what you’re doing, like it’s all part of your master plan” It’s so disjointed at this point, it’s broken off so far from where the character was in S1. It’s his journey, he changes how he sees himself, how…

TV – Fargo

I watched the first episode and I’m confused.  It’s awesome, but the whole time I’m thinking about the intro title; this is all true, it happened in MN in 2006.  Fargo the movie is older than that.  The 1995 burnt umber Siena, that’s stuck in my brain. Also comparing to the movie the characters are a bit switched around but they’re the same personalities, otherwise.  I’m already wondering what is going to happen with the rest of it.

Sale sale sale!

So far everything has been a sale, all the time. There are presales and week sales and VIP sales, even when things aren’t actually on sale (looking at you, Amazon). Best deal on games appears to be with Titanfall 2. A badly timed release, it is apparently done quite well and under reviewed only for how a game which took the feedback from the first and really addressed the problematic issues. I never had much fun with the first, but boy the second looks good in 4K. 39 but an extra $8 off with promo code TITAN20. You could also…

Vacations Highlight Living

I spent a lot of time this past week doing nothing, it was all I dreamt it could be. I am now at the stage where I feel depressed that it is coming to an end. It’s not so much that work misty begin, but regret that nothing has to end. Possibly regret that I haven’t done enough, that I don’t have much to show for all this time off. I saw my family, shared my children, and had some reflective time with the wife. I had time apart with both my brother and my sister with the brain tumor……

Technical Requirements

I spent much of last night attempting to get a 3D video posted.  I’ve been a fan of 3D vision (with the 3D LCD flicker glasses) since I tried the first wireless.version at PAX.  Crisis 2 was being  used to show it off.  It was triple monitor setup and I was hooked. I got the Asus 120hz monitor with it built in.  I even have a second pair of glasses now in case I want to watch a 3D movie. My plasma TV does 3D as well… Where has it gone?. They have not stopped making games, nor 3 D…

Initial Impressions for Elder Scrolls Online (Tamriel Unlimited) – DLC

I had not played Orsinium yet, and given Thieves Guild just came out I figured I’d give it another shot. I have been waiting for this Thieves Guild content since day 0 here on ESO and I finally get to use my designed thief. I had started getting him ready as a secondary character from the beginning. I’d focused his craft skills and honed his speed and sneakiness. I waited, so he hasn’t done a quest in quite some time, just did some crafts here and there and he’s been stuck at about level 36 for a while. I got…

Rise of the Tomb Raider et al

Ok, so QTE aside (it’s minimal) they really stepped up the tech.  It doesn’t quite look as smooth as it could, snow vs Assassins Creed III, as an example, but there were multiple times I was in awe.  It played less like an interactive movie, and more like a book I couldn’t put down.  It was all I could do to stop after the obligatory flash back sequence.  I can only hope it’s at least as long as the first one.  I purposely read very little about games now a days. Prior to that it was 3D Mark, a brief…

Tomb Raider 2013: Revisit

With Rise of the Tomb Raider on its way, I thought it might be a good time to take a second look at the one that got it all going again.  I can’t believe it was 2013, seems like a long time ago.  The hair was the big thing, it looked incredible… But yippy couldn’t actually play with it on.  I had 2 780ti cards and it would struggle with the hair. Perhaps the physics dipped the performance, everything r else was ultra but not the hair. Today it was a single 980ti and even the hair was swaying. With…

SecureBoot Causes Windows 10 Problem 10586 Pro

Had a damn near heart attack and did some much put off maintenance on my system today. Last night it failed to boot and I was at a complete loss as to why. I had added in an M.2 onboard PCIEx drive (256 on a chip instead of in an SSD SATA drive) a while back for my foray into Windows 10 — really just needed an excuse to get something newer and faster. I’ve hit my SATA drive limit for the board since the very beginning, and having one less dedicated to an active drive was a nice thought.…