Tuesday, April 29, 2003

post://200218520/

** !! We've reached 10,000 hits !! **
(10,000 / 515 days = 19.417475728155...)
That's about 19 people a day on average!

(wahoo!) ;) k - I'm done.

Saturday I ended up party hopping -- I got home, cleaned up the house (no one had touched anything for the past week), cleaned up myself... and headed out. I went to a birthday party with friends from work -- they had the juice of the evening, delish as usual. There was many a frisky lass, and it was great fun. I sobered up a bit after a walloping cup or two... and was off to check out WNEC - alas... I arrived too late as the party had been disbanded. I understand how it might, given they had caused an uproar the evening before... and this time they thought it would be great to light a reindeer up on the front lawn. Not like -- plug it in, like -- light it on fire!
I was then on my way to check out the afterparty. I wasn't able to make the Treading Water's show in Ware -- too far to trek with me getting out of work @ 8:30, but I could at least go hang out afterwards.

It was a great time as usual - recovered on Sunday. I did some more cleaning, hung around, did a small bit of food shopping (enough for a couple of days), and attempted to develop a taste for scotch. I think I did a pretty good job, considering... but what a headache. I need some further experimentation to see if that's a normal side-effect. =]

Classes are coming to an end. Accounting is especially hectic. I got my last test back - a 99... so I'm happy. There's a big assignment tonight, tomorrow, and a 'make up' class on Friday due to last week's Monday holiday. I was hoping to have some fun this week... but noooooooo. =] I'm ahead in all other aspects, however... so I suppose I can hold out until next Wed -- the last day of classes, then finals.

The satellite (the whole reason I'm not online on the weekends) has been down, so I commandeered the neighbor's phone line yesterday. I was still having issues so I called tech support. After about 10 min on the phone with level 1, and 45 minutes on hold ( I took a nap in the meanwhile ) I got through to the level 2 support. They did a test on my transmitter strength from their end - 25 out of a suitable 50-60, 100 would be perfect... so they're going to be calling me to schedule an appointment (in fact, they called me this morning to come out today - but I wasn't going to be available, so still awaiting another call to schedule for later in the week).
It worked fine as a 1-way (50-70k/sec), but I couldn't be using their phone line all night... so downloaded Return to Castle Wolfenstein for OSX, updated my OSX with updates, surfed a little -- then I was off. I'm getting a phone line installed next Monday, which is probably just in time for the satellite to get fixed... .:sigh:. se la vie =]

Return to Castle Wolfenstein worked really well on my iMac, 1.1ghz w/ GeForce 4 (128 meg) - 800x600. The widescreen format was all screwed up, probably part of the patch that was just released for the full version but this was just a demo, so I don't expect too much versatility. I had all the graphics turned up and it looked better and smoother then on my PC, 1.5ghz P4 w/ GeForce 3 (64 meg).
I was impressed.

This is from a person who was always sure mhz was no myth. Efficiency appears to be the way to go (which makes sense), and though it seems sometimes the whole computer is awaiting the completion of 1 instruction... it's generally faster, and even better with more memory, but isn't everything?
So the 128bit RISC appears to beat the 32bit CISC counterpart. It's certainly capable of running 3D better -- now I wonder if I can do some screenshots...

Oh... and brainstorming at work came up with this great iPod engraving idea. (Thanks to Ray for making this dream an effective reality)
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Saturday, April 26, 2003

post://200204444/

-= Everyone loves links... and links is whats Ize love =-
Carcam - the world is so much... taller, when seen from the eyes of a non-seeing car with a camera on top. (be amused!)
Red Vs Blue - Semi Halo-related site with short films - [ Mac State of Gaming | Blood Gulch ]
The only interesting part of this article is the part where AOL Time Warner is attempting to sell Comedy Central.
Got a DVD burner? A much more cost effective way to cut the extras out of DVDs to fit on a DVD-R.
Perpetual motion - As they all seem to work only in theory, this most likely doesn't actually work.
posted @ 19:50

post://200204476/

Photoshop:: What Peeps Do in the Off-Season
First case where I've seen anyone get sacked for making shaky-cams.
The Importance of Being Sexually Active as We Age:: Pay attention to the age differences and peaks.
We've come so far... without testing our man-made materials enough.
Follow-Up:: XXX - Stage show in Britain
Connecticut man given emergency medial treatment after swallowing 8 bags of Heroin... then says said bags can't be used as evidence after their regurgitation.
posted @ 19:29

post://200204502/

I did a little traversing on the UK side of the web::
You have probably seen the Radiohead songs released 2 months prior to the release of the new album... hell, probably already have them. I was a tad disappointed, good new though! They're all unfinished mixes.
Portugal may have de-criminalized every major drug, but it is not a drug haven!
Study: Where Spam Comes From
Games get a little more real.
Camden man, fed up with the rampant drug use in his neighborhood takes matters into his own hands. That story led me to do a little UK-Googling where I found this article, which had the actual site address.
posted @ 19:27

post://200204519/

Everyone do the:
Mac peripherals dance!
The iTrip: FM transmitter for your iPod.

Torronto is dangerous!
It looks like Grokster is almost out of the woods, KaZaA is not yet so lucky...
posted @ 19:26

post://200203914/

I spent Friday evening at a friends (after seemingly running everywhere I could possibly go -- It's tiring being butta-fly, yo!) just chillin with their band among others. The usual conglomerate was there in addition to two of the (by far) most persnickety little ladies I've ever done seen. I don't give that title up lightly. Samantha earned it after countless requests of absurdity to which one of the housemates would happily oblige. That fed the fire. Amanda was actually fine, until Samantha threw a mini-hissi, then it was more and more requests, rude, and ever the more ridiculous they got. I wasn't putting up with it, but I didn't have to. Her requests kept being met. She wanted to go home, but since her friend was cuter -- he went out of his way to keep them both overly satisfied.

They got ahold of the remote at one point and the shows consisted of "the weakest link", "cops", and that music video with Cheryl Crow and Kid Rock .:sigh:. It just about drove me batty. They then kept arguing about leaving, the cute one wanted to stay, the other one (even though she was the one who was now getting the most attention) wanted to go -- or 'said' she wanted to go. But persistent requests for them to stay lead to just that.

The night was filled with an awkward scramble. Several people thought they had a chance, didn't want to over step their bounds so made sure things were clear before moving in. So various guys swooping in like vultures (very polite vultures concerned for her well-being and comfort) to be knocked aside by barriers put in place by others. People shifted sleeping areas, shuffling, and more chaos ensued when the girls started shouting back and forth again. It was mostly in jest, and I wondered if they did this often. They spoke of people like "Miguel, Juan, and Darian" very exotic names for the type of girls they were. It seemed like a big act, at the same time almost a plea for help -- and certainly a plea for attention.

It was by far the most frustrating, interesting, funny, and awkward evening I've had in a while. I had fun with the guys, but when everyone started swooping, things got awkward. When everyone finally settled down to sleep about 5:30/6:00am... things calmed down.
Unfortunately no one seemed to make out very well -- just as well, they certainly weren't worth the trouble, but when it's all or naught - I suppose one is obliged to work with the here and now.
I was all set with that.
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Friday, April 25, 2003

post://200199998/

There were some errors with Blogger yesterday, so I couldn't post for about a day. Hence the delay in viewing the updates posted yesterday =]

I figured it was save to publish this now. dated 02/25/03
posted @ 14:19

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Thursday, April 24, 2003

post://200190690/

A real life cannonball run complete with eccentric European millionaires.
They could probably use one of these.
13yr old graduates college with a bachelor's in math.
Ikea thought naming their new children's bed after a quaint little village in Sweden would be a good idea...
Washington to enforce selling M-rated games to minors with big fines.
The numbers say less pollution We must be doing something right...
posted @ 07:47

post://200190879/

In anticipation of her new album, Madonna released bogus files into the Gnutella (Kazaa, Limewire, etc) network which are a loop of the singer saying: "What the fuck do you think you're doing?" over and over and over again... now one might think this would make people angry... it did.
Also music related: Creed is being sued for sucking.
Here's a new method of washing your feline friend.
Remember the Kansas State issue regarding the Human Sexuality professor being graphic, and the issues with the video materials he had shown in class? The governor has vetoed the provision.
Need a little help getting spyware out of your PC?
Warning: Monkey at large, unarmed but possibly dangerous, small, dark... and hairy.
Follow-Up: Puerto Rican Ko-kee frogs invade Hawaii
The new Incredible Hulk trailer.
Penn State cuts students access to the network after complaints of shared copyrighted material.
Terrorist weapons, materials, cash found in Iraq.
Kamikaze Killmouse - Cartoons and the like...
There's nothing like the special relationship between a woman and her cellphone.
An ancient village (600-800 A.D.) found near Illinois.
Courtney Lewis and her editorial on sex toys.
New pictures of Mars.
Sneak peek at the 2004 Auto Show in NY.
More about our potential megalomaniac friend Nicolai and his lighting fun.
All the news we missed while watching the war.
Previously unseen sexy nudes of Marilyn Monroe.
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Wednesday, April 23, 2003

post://200190615/

So this weekend turned out to be a giant party-fest. Everyone had Monday off from school here in MA due to... Patriot's day? I forget what the holiday is, but it's specific to MA. Some went home for Easter, most just made their appearances and went off to do their own thing after.

I spent a lot of time soaking up the sun driving around, stopping by friends houses, driving around with nowhere specific in mind... just drifting to different people's houses. We'd stop in, chill for a while, and then go off somewhere else - back to my house, and then off again. It was fun, relaxing. With everything building up with school and the whatnot, I needed a little time off.

Mazda has come out with a 2003.5 Mazdaspeed Protege. It's got different wheels, spoiler, front end, a basic interior, and a few additional colors. Overall I think mine looks nicer, it's a special edition afterall - I'd hate for them to show me up after putting in all that effort to secure mine.

The news seems boring without the war going on... it looked like we were in for a long haul. Iran is suspiciously eyeing the southern area of Iraq, and the biggest issue is they're promoting one race over another. They finally have a chance to experience equality, to realize that everyone really is the same on the inside - it's personality that makes people what they are. It's probably all going to blow up in our faces, with everything wrong being blamed on the US and it's intervention. I'd really like things to be peaceful and have the people think for themselves. It's like they've been brainwashed for so long - they really don't know to think for themselves, they're not sure what they want, even what they should want.

I got some links coming -- I've been collecting them over the past few days... well worth the wait - some really unique and interesting tidbits for y'all.
Video of Saddam turning into Wayne Newton via plastic surgery... a real-life Cannonball run from the west coast to the east by rich Europeans... a 13 year old who just graduated with a bachelors in math... and pictures of Madonna's website after a hacker posted her brand new album up @ madonna.com =]
posted @ 19:24

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Friday, April 18, 2003

post://200167821/

Whew, wild week coming to a close. There's been so much going on, I think my head's finally stopped spinning.

It seems that everyone's having issues as of late - in comparison, my troubles really don't seem all that bad. A lot of it has to do with people just getting out on their own, friends of mine who've been living with their parents are going out on their own. Things always seem to pop up after a while, streaks only go on for so long. A lot of it might have to do with feeling cocky, too -- I've witnessed many an individual, so sure of themselves, be bungled by their own confidence. Modesty is a rewarding character trait.

I'm just looking forward to school being over and done with, getting my free time back -- and I'll probably be begging for something to occupy my mind again, really soon. For now, here's some links.
I got quite a few clicks last time to the sponsors, but no actual signups. I'll try and find more that don't require any money -- that are just signing up for survey's or whatnot. That way it's no skin off anyone's back, but if you or anyone you know is looking for posters, dorm stuff, music, movies... you know where to find 'em!
I thank you to those who took the time to view the products of the people that (hopefully soon?) make this all possible. =]
posted @ 19:52

post://200168280/

Tatu takes titilating teens to task.
*NEW!* Iraqi Dis-Information Minister Doll! Order yours today!
Holy shit!
Ejaculation is 'more complex than it seems'
Cars: Preview of 2004 models
Ancient animal and plant DNA found in Siberian caves.
Some people are just chaos magnets.
Them explosives wur fer varmants...
Video: Barney sings gansta rap
eXtreeeeeeeem! MotoGO!
TV says: Kill Your Mother!
posted @ 19:24

post://200167862/

Firefly's glow = gl0w
Maybe you've heard of CNN's premature pre-fab obituaries?
Springfield: Where a man's life is worth a 20 bag.
Gecko! Squeeeezie! 2.95!
Serta Sheep! Watch them munch the logo at the top of the page.
Peeps purpose possibly perposterous
so that's how they do it...
Follow-Up: No "shock and awe" for Sony
Madza performance parts
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Thursday, April 17, 2003

post://200164161/

The Fast and the Mildly Agitated

OK -- so I'm going to go pick up my car from the body shop, I had borrowed the Topaz to get around in the meanwhile - not 5 minutes from the place when someone ran into me. GRAUGH! There was a light coming up along Rt 20 I was in the right lane going straight, they were in the left lane. They turned right, and right into my rear left quarter panel. I've come to the conclusion that I'm magnetic.

That's not all -- it had to be a melee, if not for the friendly Russian immigrant that saw it and offered witness... I'm not sure what I would have done. It turned out that they were following a U-Haul, the driver of which got out and pretended like he was the one driving. He was asked about his license by the Russian, and of course didn't have one - he called them on the fact that they were trying to cover up the fact by putting the other guy on the driver's side. They stammered, wrote down my license plate - I was trying to get their info when the entire family jumped in the car and took off. We were right at a car dealership, the employees had come out shortly before and had all the tags from both the U-Haul and the other people's car. They all offered witness as well.

I didn't call the police -- maybe I should have, but they obviously were in no shape to pay any kind of damages... the fear in the driver's eyes when he was asked about a license... I just felt bad. I knew that the Topaz was ok, their light was broken and the bumper pushed in... and I didn't want anyone arrested for maybe $500-1000. They needed a break, I think. I just didn't want to deal with police, and insurance... I just got done with all that. I can only hope that it'll work out positively, that I did the right thing - overall. I didn't care about the money, I knew the car wasn't badly hurt, and everyone was ok - no harm done... I think. =]

...but In case anyone should see a 90-92 Toyota Camry with the MA license plate: 6961 RO, don't let them hit you, and tell 'em "LARGE MARGE SENT YA!" =]~
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Wednesday, April 16, 2003

post://200157838/

Sex, power, war, demons... they're all the same to crazy people.

So I was locked out of my advertising program today -- they sent out an announcement that they'd be clearing out the stagnant accounts -- by stagnant they're not saying that no one's clicking, they're saying that no one's buying or signing up. So I got shut off, and now I have to buy something -- I encourage you to do the same! Just something small... even sign up for eBay or the movie survey thing. That way I'm active, and might even have the chance to some day go mainstream!
(well -- that might not happen, but this gives an opportunity to possibly recover bandwidth/hosting costs)

And my favorite... MusicMatch Jukebox! (download the standard version)


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Tuesday, April 15, 2003

post://200153106/

I wonder where all the anti RIAA sentiment is coming from?
This smuggling business is getting really heavy.
An interesting Blog - full of nonsense!
Care to make a deposit, withdrawal?
Victoria & Albert - UK Online Museum
Remember Rodney King?
posted @ 20:00

post://200153097/

Check out these secrets of the cold war.
A throne for those who live (and poop) in the fast lane.
Surfing Record: The wrong way up a river on a once-a-year wave... 37 minutes!
How the Hollywood shpeal works...
posted @ 19:57

post://200153094/

The news that CNN couldn't tell you about.
Someone's shootin @ Snoop!
They're at it again! The House has proposed the repeal of term limits for the president.
Don't Burn Your Penis!!!
Archive: The Aberree - The Non-Serious Voice of Scientology
P.J. O'Rourke: How to DRIVE FAST on DRUGS while getting your WING-WANG SQUEEZED and not SPILL YOUR DRINK
posted @ 19:56

post://200153090/

A NY bar fly and his art on the backs of business cards...
Nanotech battle suits!
posted @ 19:55

post://200153083/

Pics: T3: Kristanna
Limmy.com: Xylophone
Slate: Toppled - National styles of pulling down statues.
Reuters: Free Online News Feed
Drive Right, Pass Left
Various videos of ads.
The delightful Iraqi Information Minister! Fan Site!
James Cameron goes 3D!
Arab Media and the new rules of "The Game".
posted @ 19:53

post://200152498/

So what did I do this weekend? Good question.

I just stayed home, played video games, drank some beers, and hung out with friends. My internet connection at home is kaput until I can get either a phone line re-activated at the house, or a cable modem of my own. Ken de-activated his phone, which means I can't sync the satellite. It's 2-way but it needs an initial dial up connection to get it going. No such luck now, and I think it's like $60 to get a phone installed. I don't want any more monthly bills! No more!

Ken gave his notice - June 1st he should be out. I'm hoping to rent the smaller rooms out for $275 including utilities, and the big room upstairs for $300. That way no one has to worry about paying utilities, it's the same each month, and I day to collect vs 3 or 4 -- whenever the various bills arrive. I might have to ask for a little extra during the tough winter months. $400 a month for gas is not my idea of a good time - especially when you're just trying to keep warm!

Some horny bastard ordered porn at 7am after my birthday party. I got the bill yesterday and there it was - a $12 charge for porn staring me right in the face. What's that?!! C'mon... I know that no one in the house would have ordered it - everyone is too resourceful for that. I've questioned a few people, but porn always has a way of just ordering itself - odd.

COBOL doesn't seem to be going all that well -- struggling with the program I was on resulted in me finally finding what was wrong - only to find I had the tip of the iceberg. There was a whole bunch of calculating and if... then statements to do... which didn't want to work once I wrote them. I'm going to try and get in there early for short session with the professor, but I might just quit while I can, grab a W and take it next time. I've at least got a start in it -- I hate to waste the time, but if I'm getting a D so far... it's not worth the hit to my already weak GPA. If I don't find the magic lightbulb by tomorrow - as in I'm not able to get the concept and proceed with the other programs, I'll throw in my hat and sit out the remainder. I still want to finish the programs, that way I'll at least be ahead of the game when I take it again.

My car's in the shop -- getting the vicious dent out of it!!! It wasn't my fault... no deductible, but he couldn't have hit me in a better spot, or a worse spot. It was right in the rear left quarter panel -- 4Runner scooted into my lane just a bit... *blam*! It wasn't too hard as we were coming up on a stop light - damn little guy couldn't even see over the steering wheel. .:sigh:. It was a bad place, but it wasn't all that severe, marginal scratching - small dent. My options were to either cut the piece out and weld a new piece over it... or pull out the dent and cover any recesses. Considering the structural integrity would be nil if I had them cut it, I chose to have it pulled. It should look just as good, and still retain it's rigidness.
They're going to do all the measurements to ensure it's not out of alignment due to the impact, and they've got the special paint direct from the factory to make sure it all matches up - so we'll see what happens. I ought to have it back by Thursday.
Commerce gave me a pretty good settlement - (they better, it's off of the other guy's insurance) - and they had a quick turn-around, about a week. Besides demanding an absurd amount of money from me to start my insurance policy -- they seem OK so far.

So there's some stuff on my head, school's coming to an end. I've got a pretty good grapple on the other 2 classes, so I should be OK there. I just need to stay sane... things will slow down once I'm out of school - and maybe revert to some semblance of normality. I keep trying to gear things up with the computer biz, would be nice to have a little extra income... and it's something I enjoy doing. I especially enjoy setting someone up with their dream system -- really showing them the difference between a custom machine and the pre-fab crapshoots.

I'm really looking forward to being right next to the park. It's so beautiful there in the summer. It's worth putting up with the winter months to get such beautiful summers. I think that's why everyone says how they're getting out of this place every winter, but end up sticking around indefinitly. They just can't stand to leave the summer and fall.

Speaking of winter... it's supposed to be 72 here tomorrow -- then rain to sleet in the evening when it falls down to 30-40 degrees. Sheesh!
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Wednesday, April 09, 2003

post://200123973/

There were some really great quotes in this article regarding the status of Baghdad. There's also some really good pictures of the statue toppling. I haven't updated my news page in quite some time, but I just added the above article.
posted @ 20:43

post://200123430/

So I got a call from my baby's mamma today -- Franna's my only baby. =]
She's still with Keith, my friend from a year, year and a half ago. There's still a bit of a mystery surrounding that whole ordeal... but I am fine with him being convinced I'm a horrible person. I don't remember doing anything all that bad, maybe he just had a lot of things floating around in his head that he was too afraid to say. In any case, it was one thing too many and bam... he pushed me out of his life.
Now that's just what I'm assuming. It's never been clear to me as to why, they seemed to think I should know (it was him and Andy who came to this determination).

The only thing I can think of is regarding a female friend of Andy's, probably would have been a lot easier had I not gotten involved -- and maybe brought out jealousy? I'm not so sure that's enough to sever a friendship over... but I'd really just like to be able to visit with them without creating a negative inpact on their life. Which is of course the reason they have severed any ties with me.

So I have sort of an issue created with my baby's momma coming to visit. She can't drive - he's still going out with her so he would be the one driving - "You're certainly not his favorite person.." ~ that was the exact quote.
.:sigh:. as much as I hate not being someone's favorite person, I really don't care.
I just wish it didn't involve such conflict.
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Tuesday, April 08, 2003

post://200117817/

A telescope for 'gravity waves'!
Ultra-spiffy web-hosting, most likely will start my business site there, maybe move this one once my extra bandwidth has been used up (probably another couple months at this rate)

I'm happy. I hate to say it stems from money... but money relieves the burdon that I've really felt lately. With this extra bit - I'll be able to take care of some major bills (I blame credit cards and an insatiable desire to have the biggest and best) I'm feeling it a little - but I was nowhere near setting up a savekaryn site ;)~ I think I got a grapple on it for the most part -- I'm good for a while.

I received word from the house-mates that Franna ate some sausage. I had asked anyone if they were cooking anything nummy to try and give her some. She ate it... I'll have to make up some more chicken... see if she's game yet. I'm hopin!

So like I said... I'm feeling a bit relieved. My hard work this year hasn't gone unnoticed... and I must look back at this any time that I wonder... it seems that a year is a long wait, until the wait is over. I appreciate the job that I have. I've always said that -- even though I do bitch a little from time to time. I enjoy the people I work with, and can manage to make it the best possible work environment between all of us. I have to deal with a lot of crap -- but everyone does, and usually their crap smells a bunch worse then what I have to deal with.

Yeah... that's kinda graphic - but I have a nice warm *cough*stinkybasement*cough* work environment with sufficient *cough*notascomfortableasthegoodchairs*cough* chairs... and a workstation with which I can work effectively at.
Just as long as I keep showing up, and doing what I'm doing -- I think I'll be alright =]
posted @ 19:40

post://200117141/

(today's word is random)

You must help with the cause.

Here's one way to make a draft.
Such wonderful pictures!
Family Guy on Cartoon Network! - schedule
The Killer Japanese Seizure Robots!
Nice random blog.
Hacker cracks XBox challenge.
Loads Linux on XBox!
Install Linux on your XBox!
Western MA weblogs.
Another random blog - Lollygagger.org
Crazy guy goes nuts in church... doo dah, doo dah.
Girls Gone Wild goes a little too wild (and a tad too young)
It's a Hemp leaf! They're sailors, sheesh!
Collector snags a 'very rare artifact from Africa'
Screaming Midget Magazine
Here's some handy black hole travel advice.
New cellphone watch coming to a society near you...
Nifty Anime, interactive site.
Here's a random site, no... really.
posted @ 17:17

post://200117357/

''You lieeeeeee!''
beautiful layering - decent blog, uber eyecandy
JC Penny - you return stuff... and we'll stab ya!
Here's a little snippet on the matrix animated shorts.
South Africa: Girl beats up would-be burglar with a hockey stick.
Windows Media Player: Life as a Guy - A delightful animated short.
Engrish dot com, enough said - anymore, too much. I've said enough - I've said too much! (a... muuuuuch tooooo muuuuuuch)
50 million more historical documents posted online.
Another random blog - very cool background, full of teenage girl musings.
RIAA - now they're suing individual students.
A nice example of web design, random - of course.
posted @ 16:50

post://200116612/

Links are a-comin!
posted @ 16:47

post://200116594/

I got my COBOL test back today - 65, not bad considering I didn't remember I had it until it was too late to study, planned on getting up early and looking at it before the test... and slept halfway through the period. I got in just in time to take it really quickly... and got what I got. I certainly earned the 65... just made me sad. He's insulting. Early on I tried really hard, attempted to answer his questions, but a few wrong answers, some humiliation in front of the class... and his not letting it go resulted in me losing ambition for class participation.
I also attempted to ask him a question after last class regarding assignment 2 -- he said I was sitting on my butt.
I never asked him my question.
I just want to tell him to go to hell.
He's a nice old man, but he rambles... then cuts down anyone who can't ramble off square roots, tricks to figuring out long division, or other theories. I'm not a math person, he's a math teacher, and anyone who doesn't do math boom boom boom is an idiot.
I understand math, I work with formulas, I plug and press compute. I understand how it gets there, I just can't do the footwork when I know there's something that will do it far easier -- for me. I've always had that problem.
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Monday, April 07, 2003

post://200116541/

I buckled down (sorta) and got to my COBOL today. I leapt the hurdle of assignment 2, attempted # 3... and ran into the same freakin issue I got last time. It's at a point where it can't give me any good info, either. I just have to go step by step through the variables and make sure my "write variable1 to variable2." statements aren't taking a letter (or uncleared garbage in memory) and trying to add with it, or trying to put a larger variable into a smaller area. It's great when it's going well, but debugging is a bitch and a half.
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Sunday, April 06, 2003

post://200116446/

I'll just change the name of this thing to The Sad Cat Blog.
No good news regarding Franna. I brought her home today, but she's still sick. They gave me the option of a feeding tube - putting a hole in her neck, then sliding the food right down into her belly -- "uh... no thanks"
I'm not going to keep my cat alive if there's obviously something wrong with her enough that she can't eat, can't drink... I tried just dropping water on her nose, she licked it off... that only worked for so long. I can't get her to eat anything good... not even nice boiled chicken and rice. I had some beef too... usually she's all over me for anything I've got -- it's so sad to see her like this.
She doesn't get up... and when she does, it's usually to puke. I've kept her in my room, door closed to keep the other cat out. I've got everything she might need right there. I haven't seen her eat, I have seen her near the water... but have yet to see her drink. She's using the box... so she must be drinking something. I'm just so at a loss for things to do.

I had them do the extra tests - X-rays and ultrasound, at their behest... and they still couldn't tell me what was wrong with her. The most likely scenario, as she's had stomach trouble in the past is an ulcer. Of course they can't say for sure if it is or not. All the blood work prior came out to nothing... can't believe I've done this much for a cat. My parents always had this philosophy that if the cat had to go to the vet with anything more then getting shots... it was just the cat's time.

I don't want to let her go, but I also know that if she's really sick... then she will either pull through on her own with my support, or she'll die happy at home, snuggled up... I can only hope it goes that well. I'm so sad for my kitty. I love my Franna... but just feel like there's nothing I can do. I'm hoping, other's are hoping... I just hate having to fill people in on her status when it's not better.

So that's my Sad Cat Blog.
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Saturday, April 05, 2003

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For people that knew Phil R.

posted @ 20:04

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I stopped to visit Franna before work, I'd hoped to see the Dr, but he wasn't available. I'm not sure if they did in fact do the X-Ray or the Ultrasound yet, but they gave her some medication to stop the nausea and they've been giving her fluids. She was really alert and aware when I got there, almost wanted to jump out of the cage, but she relaxed and was much more up and about then yesterday. So she's certainly getting better, I'm hoping that she just needed something to be able to get back up on her feet again, start eating, and get some energy back to let her body heal. I was all prepared after seeing her yesterday, didn't think she'd be making it home. As long as she stays on track, she should be home soon!
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Friday, April 04, 2003

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I just heard back from the Vet -- blood work came out negative for any kind of virus, infection, or parasite. She could have an ulcer... or some other form of growth. There's not really anywhere else to go from here other then an X-Ray and Ultrasound. Even if they do find anything with the X-Ray, I can't do a surgery - much as I want to. If there's nothing conclusive after the X-Ray, then I just bring her home and that's that.

I was on the phone with a customer the first time he called - had to get back to him. I was having a really hard time with this woman describing digital cable - "don't start with that technology stuff - that's computer and internet... I don't even have a digital TV" and my favorite quote of all time: "This is just like Communist Russia!"

I was reading through my entry from the other day and had a few regrets.
Things have changed with the situation since then, and I said quite a few really harsh un-founded remarks - mainly to emphasize the helplessness I felt in not being able to change the inevitable. It was first brought to my attention the other day by a co-worker who commented on the curtness and difficulty I had portrayed. I read it over with a less cloudy mind and realized there were many a comment that I would take great offence to if someone had written a similar thing about me. Before anything escalated I wanted to possibly clear the confusion and maybe even retract the items that were exceptionally un-founded.
I made personal comments about people very near and dear to me, comments that were based on my anger at the time, my confusion as to where I was going because of these changes. In a journalistic forum, there are certain expectancies... responsibilities they must adhere to. In a free-access environment there is no editorial process. Granted - my page, my thoughts... but no one deserves to have feelings generated about them based on one person's opinion. No one person has the answer, and thoughts are always clouded with emotion. Instead of taking a knife's edge into the things that bothered me about friends - my own actions should have been inspected. Instead of rambling about people in a way that could potentially effect them negatively -- one can speak in very general terms - conveying the meaning, without the intimate details. I should have seen the things they have done for me, the support they've given, and the reason that I choose to surround myself with them, and they - I, in our own home.

I hope to use this as an item to show what can happen when you forget why you're where you are - because you've gotten along with the help of others, no one can go it alone. Anyone who says it... they may be correct - but they can't be happy. I don't surround myself with just anyone. I'm too skeptical, unsure, and untrusting of the world around me. Comments just can't be formulated with bits of information from here and there. I've had a recent experience where a conglomerate of facts can turn into a truth with only it's reproduction. My comments were based upon the same principal, but because I didn't know... and I still wanted to express it, I had to fill it with something. You can't do that and still expect to retain your credibility. I'll use a journalistic example of the recent picture reproduction by the NY Times photographer.

So if anyone happens to read what I've written previous:
I care about these people far to much to risk them reading it without explanation, so take how I really feel into account.

Who read's this thing, anyway...?
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Thursday, April 03, 2003

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I just had to bring my kitty into the hospital for the night.
She's been real sick the past few days, not eating, being really slow... you can just tell she's not feeling well. I brought her in, they offered to keep her for the night, give her some liquids and hopefully get her eating again. They kept trying to get me to agree to X-rays, but I want to see how all the other tests come back first.
I feel so bad leaving her there - she knew she was in good hands though, and I'll be back by tomorrow to see how everything went.
posted @ 23:32

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Today's super funny! c l i c k h e r e

Post-war futuristic artwork article.
Radebaugh exhibit - I just bought a print of the city with the Zephyr.

NY restaurants have found a way around the tobacco ban.
Dog Translator
Jim Carrey's wife wants more monthly money.
DVD X Copy - along the lines of DVD95Copy (below)
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Wednesday, April 02, 2003

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(I took the time to put a few comments in the links... so hover for a moment over them)
Check out DVD95Copy 1.3
photographer ousted for digitally modifying front page picture
Lower Income = More Videogames
The attack has begun!
Car and driver review of my car.
Yahoo! News: Cig Ban is Ash-Inine - esencially a rant about how the fines are less for smoking pot in public than it is for cigaretts in an establishment. (no link due to asshats in charge of making urls for yahoo)
Remember Garbage Pail kids? I bet you don't remember the movie!
posted @ 20:35

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Master the art of complaining
erotic anime
The museum of unworkable devices (w/ explanations as to why)
Why are troops wearing dark green camouflage?
Find out what happens when you drop a giant 14' rubber band ball from a mile up!
Don't buy too much sudafed -- or: How to make crystal meth with widely available ingredients.
If Guinness is black - what makes the bubbles white?
The case mod to end all case mods

(article for below)
UMASS all-digital sky survey

Mix-matched reptile lived longer in Australia then anywhere else
The week in pictures
Paint your own "King of Pop Baby Drop" collectable sculpture
T-Mobile unvailed it's video messaging service
A wicked cool MP3 mixer/scratching program
Anyone got Classmates Gold? I really want to get ahold of this guy and see what he's been up to. While you're at it... anyone seen Rachel F-S??
posted @ 13:29

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I'm tired today -- but it's OK. I'll deal, I'll sleep later.
I'm behind in COBOL, it's official. I'm going to hand in my half-done assignment 2 and see what happens.
I'll be able to work on it after I've handed it in, then get him the finished copy ASAP. I'm hoping it'll at least buy me time. I can't take the test for assignments 1, 2, and 3 without even having handed in 3.

I spent a long time today trying to gain some insight into 2 very beautiful ladies. I can't say they even had the remotest interest in me... but I wasn't going for that... and they seemed to talk like I wasn't even there - so it worked out.
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One of my classes got out early today, so I was just bumming around.
I grabbed a bite to eat and sat down at the only available table with a landscaper and a waitress.
I knew this because "work" was their current topic of conversation.
I took out my accounting book and "read" as I listened intently and munched on my burger.
The girl wanted a job, the guy went on about how he did landscaping under the table for $9 an hour.
- When it's hot out it's really hard - it drains the energy out of you.
She would like a job as a waitress. Her old job would rake in $120-$140 a night, and most places she said are about $80, and at 2 nights a week... she needs that extra.
A short while later the girls friend came over, having about 6 empty salt packets and very very salty fries. She made a face and got flushed when she took a bite and the guy asked "Salty?"
It appeared that they were, she knew it... but they were fine. She munched on.
She was very skinny, blonde, with a tan complexion. The other girl wasn't quite as attractive but both took very good care of themselves.
The topic turned to relationships after the guy left - the girl said how he was very sweet, in one of her classes, and how he's always talking about his girlfriend with nothing but caring and affection.
The fry-girl said he was one of her first high school crushes.
I deduced they all knew each other from high school.
Fry-girl was saying how she got up at 4am - was just thinking about stuff and couldn't get back to sleep. "I've just been stressin' about stuff" worrying in regards to school, not so much about guys... but it triggered a question to the fry-girl about the guy she went out with. She started by saying how the guys just don't 'seem to care' anymore. I think I missed some further explanation.
- "He's gorgeous, 6'1", brown hair - it's good - we both said we're looking for about the same thing. We care about each other but neither of us are really looking for anything right now. So it's good that we both feel the same about it.
She spoke of 3 or 4 guys - all really tall, muscular, and how this guy beats them all - goes to some college near Boston - and even impressed Amanda... and he's totally not Amanda's type.
As I was wrapping up, the girl was talking about her assignment for English:
- I need to write about "Fear Factor" and why it's compulsive, or addictive, or whatever...
She was also going to include a "bio on the host" for a bonus.
As I left I had to say something --
"I just can't believe they're assigning reality TV for English homework - doesn't seem right."
She gave a look - like I insulted her. The fry-girl inquired further on my point -- the girl had chosen it as a topic...
and off to class I went.
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